FOUND MY first KELEMAHAN

 
hey my life not yours blog hikhik. oh kebosanan nya aku ini malam . haru je asa nak buat apa tah sekarang ni. okay mari bercerita tentang semalam macam best je macam best je. okay post ni sebenarnya erti kata lain nak cakap bahawasanya you have to give yourself a chance in expressing your own feeling. masa seseri memang aku ratu diary hehe semua ceritera ada dalam diary aku almaklumlah aku kan homesick uhuks *kononnya lah haha
oh macam aku tak tahu nak start kat mana . haila putus fius betul lah aku haha tak cukup litar ke merah  (( setiap kali entri post mesti tanya pasal macam mana nak start ayat en haha )) tak kisah la nak start macam mana pun yang aku tahu tittle aku punya post kali ni memang mendalam gila. really found something hidden in myself rupanya. ce teka menda haha alkisahnya macam ni aku pergi keluar makan en dengan sisa baki kex yang ada kat kelantan kan . tu pun sapa je yang ada. sumpah i tell you, we never expect that we would go this far - seriously. sumpah ni tau. you know macam kitaorang rapat gila yang gila punya rapat macam takde border langsung (( ade aaa kalau laki pompuan =.= )) we never expect to be THISSSSSSSSSSSSSS CLOSE until you feel a kind of missing-them when they go for their separate ways. its like half of me is with you guyss :'(  *nangis air mata darah sekali pun diorang pergi jugak dek kerana mengejar cita cita yang diimpikan dalam hidup masing masing. uhuks aku tak nak emo malam ni tapi masalahnya memang maacam tu. ya allah, why are people going away from ma life. why the hell is this happening. ???? astaghfurullah sabar lah merah dah namanya hidup , ni bukan makan ke tidur ke. emm terima je lah. feels like badz baru je pergi haila ni ameer and tiah pulak nak pergi. :'( how could i face my world without them ecece tapi ye lah aku tak tipu langsung ni woi.
alamak hai dah mencarut sangat ni hai hahaha. okay em its like everybody have their own kekurangan yet kelebihan. it depends on you whether you show em or not. but it was obviously kantoi gila bila benda ni jadi masa keluar tu en apa la aku. teruk oi sumpah nak sorok dalam bantal  je muka aku time tu. okay satu satu nya benda kelemahan abadi aku ni is AKU TAK BOLEH KALAU ORANG LAKI TENUNG AKU even with those crazy bffs sumpah tiba2 akan rasa macam darah naik berderu-deru ke muka seolah2 ada orang simbah darah tau tak. haila merah mana boleh doe macam ni haha. nanti kau masuk universiti ke mende ke assignments lagi kena buat confirm dalam group. tak main la group all girls macam kat seseri, confirm2 dah mix. dah kalau sekali ditenung orang lelaki kau malu alamatnya sampai bila bila pun tak siap kerja kau. okay chill merah. haha you gotta find ways to make situations like discussions in group tak jadi awkward , kalau tak baik bukak universiti sendiri. omg im a weirdo hahaha., ye ke weird? bukan cute ke? hahahahhaha haru lah aku macam ni kalau ada ubat nak sembuh penyakit aku ni confirm aku pergi cari kat guardian ke watson ke haha. hojadi beringat lah ye. if we are meant to bump into each other, and if you're a guy mohon segala mohon jangan pandang mata aku hahaa confirm aku gelabah semacam pastu mula lah mencarut habis sebab nak cover malu hahaha. 

#throwback. halimatus saadiah. merangkap PA aku selamanya kat kex. merangkap neighbour paling aku rapat. merangkap driver jugak hahahaha

                               
                                          #farewell tiah uhuks. will meet ya later huks huks :'(

# farewell ameer and amin . semoga kita berjumpa eccecece :P
wasalam untuk hari ni hehe :)

If Allah is the reason for you to start , why not ?

yeay kinda back after weeks of not updating any news. to be honest i was quiet since i was so busy preparing myself for the intake to PALAM. yeah i got PALAM to pursue asasi sains and i yest accept the offer to PALAM but still in mind im hoping for mara - rather in the sense of IB or the normal foundation in science so that i can be called "DR" one day chewah berangan bhai haha. theres nothing much happened as a SPM leaver *oii dah lama kot tinggal spm. otak pun boleh tahan karat. chemistry macam lupa je semua haha. staying at home reading story books and newspapers *ni sumpah sometimes je baca haha* was my daily routine. eh jangan lupa eh jadi driver and bibik jugak. haha
eh nak cakap pasal apa eh? em okay let me start the path of knowing that i received MARA's offer. oh i was deadly the most elated person in the world. born to be not a really-genius person i really thanked Allah for this golden opportunity He had given to me. sumpah rasa nak nangis air mata darah. it was like i slept early on that 24th may. and out of the blue idk what woke me up at around 4.45am then was so shocked. *There was a jaw-drop expression on my face seriously. and i saw 700++ messages from 18 conversations from my Whatsapp !! !! omg omg omg

a friend of mine named halimatus - i'd known her since KEX. she is actually my neighbour also. i shared almost everything with her , well her cheerful-type-of-person makes me feel to laugh every second every minute every hour with her. and one of the messages from her was...
GUESS 
WHAT...

ahh i burst in tears. i was blurred. i was astounted. i was on top of the cloud. i was at the peak of a mountain. i was ' IS THIS A DREAM. DONT TELL ME YESS. OR AM I BERANGAN ANGAN? ' ya allah only allah knows my heart was beating like i'll die in 30 seconds. there's no word i could say that time. and my head yet mouth kept on saying 'Alhamdulilah Alhamdulilah' for thousand times. to those people outside who is much better than me, this maybe a emmph to them but not to me. i really felt very grateful for what i received. 
Insya allah i'll be doing foundation in Science for a year in Kolej Mara Kuala Nerang and will pursue my study in Medicine at Royal College of Medicine  Perak. this is what i hoped for so please pray for my success insya allah. 
okay so KMKN ni cane eh? haha. alamak hai kedah oii jauh nya from kelantan memang tak dapat balik lah aku en masa pulang bermalam haha. homesick la nanti aaa cemana ni takpelah kena kuat. nama lagi nak belajar. if you dont take the challenge in life then how can you improve . insya allah this will be my path to be doctor as what i aimed for. so that's why - if Allah is the reason for you to start , reach the sky and grab the stars :)

MARA'S INTERVIEW at KOLEJ MARA BANTING

HOLA LOLA. haha okayh kembali bersua kita bersama. haaa jom la pulak nak cerit pasal interview mara ni hah. mana nak start hah emm haha. okay fine kita orang pergi hari jumaat which yang pergi ni my dad and i je taw. pastu macam muqri ni manja lah kan, of course la atok aku yang duduk keyel tu nak jumpa cucu kesayangan dia, bodek punya bodek mak aku, akhirnya adikku yang seorang ini ikut jugak. haha awesome lah jugak bila ada 3 orang dalam kereta takde la bohsan sangat kan. we departed from our house around 11am and arrived safely around 8pm. jam oii keyel hari jumaat. aku dah tak boleh nak duduk senyap dalam kereta haha.gerak sana gerak sini nasib lah. malam tu jugak buat research bagai 'kononnya lah' .punya la takut sampai pasal mara pun baca goshh haha.keesokannya pagi2 pun buat research jugak masya allah haha. baca kenapa nak jadi doct la. why gynecology la? why wanna go overseas la? haha nanti karang kena soal tak ke mampus tak boleh jawab. haha. tepat pkul 12 lebih2, maka bertolak lah kami dari shah alam ke banting. hadui kau hati aku macam berdebar oi jantung atas lantai rasa nak baling jauh jauh je haha.alkisahnya sampai la kolej mara banting. mak kau macam sekolah bhai terkejut aku ya allah. takkan la nak masuk sekolah balik masya allah tak sanggup. tapi sumpah yang mana nak enjoy university life, kmb ni memang kena out of the list jauh2. sabar je la,. sekolah aku yang seseri lagi lawa haha.

arrived at 1.10pm cenggitu and my heart was like pumping like i wanna die on the spot haha. my stomach was singing huih macam apa dah. then my dad kata, takpe la kita pergi makan. i was hah makan?
oh makanan apa pun aku tak nak sentuh dah masa ni haa gila gila. then it when awesomely. i was in J group. number 5 :) haha.  pastu mula2 masuk bilik interview tu. i was grouped in group of 10 and there was like chairs arranged in a semi-circle shape. so our first challenge was a group discussion,
                  " you're in an air balloon. the air balloon will fall down. discuss who should you remove." ahh tak ingat lah macam mana soalan dia. kan ada 10 orang so different person different characters. ada prime minister, emma maembong ke. mine was tony fernandez. :) tokei air asia ooh haha. then defend urself lah supaya you stay atas air balloon tu. next soalan is pun group discussion jugak. fikir je. basically they wanna see how you think. how you solve problem. can you speak in front of people? haaa camtu je insya allah boleh junior-juniorku huhu. last but not least, it was an individual interview. kawan-kawanku punya soalan ya allah susah weh, poligami la. hudud la. astaghfirullah ya allah aku bersyukur sangat masa kena soalan ni. alhmdulilah sangat tak kena soalan macam tu. mine was about
                   " DEFINE HAPPINESS TO YOU" ya allah allahu nak melompat masa tu. alhamdulilah kat KEX dah belajar macam mana nak jawab soalan interview. what's the point withdrawing your parents moneyy like almost 1000 ringgit kot end up you don't even use the techniques you've learnt , right? insya allah thanks to KM and capt and KEXITO haha. seriously in any interviews, the things we learnt in Kex really help me through out all those interviews i attended before. sumpah swear. and yet whatever it is, thanks to my daddy, mummy, sarah, abang, and muqri haha *muqri bagi support ke? bagi okay haha . thats all bye peeps.

UKM Ujian Saringan Permata Pintar.

oyeah ku kembali semula haha. okay hari ni nak cerita pasal UKM test hik hok. punya la berangan nak nagun awal oiii kelmarin. twngok jam '6.45!!' . ya allah melompat aku dari katilku empuk nan lembut puihh haha. with my daddy yang outstation, dengan serta mertanya tugas driver diambil olehku haha. bibik pun aku driver pun aku haduss me so tired. tapi bila lagi kita nak berbakti dekat parents kita kan, maka dengan rasminya keluar lah rumah dengan muqri and maisarah hantar diorang pergi sekolah. dan seterusnya nak pergi amik exam. al kisahnya exam ni pulak kat sekolah lama mama aku , smkkk1 . hadoi jadi ku tahu selok belok sekolah itu haha. on the way nak pergi rasa macam lambat je lagi. sekali sampai kat flyover aku pergi u-turn pulak. aku apa lagi gelabah tahap mega lah, jam dah 7.45 dah ohoiii ikut hati aku nak terbang je kalau lah boleh jadi superman haha. kisah lah yang tu, sampai sekolah smkkk1 tu, terus pergi computer lab. my heart was like on the floor sumpah. rasa macam dup dap dup dap gila. bukak pintu tengok dah ada la empat lima orang. thank Allah, Allah nak tolong aku jumpa pulak ex-mates ku di maher - arif and syamim. waduuuu rasa macam jejak kasih pun ada. sebenarnya kami masing-masing dapat tawaran ke mara dan sbp habis pmr dulu. kira macam reunion lah jugak kan haha. then the moment i was not waiting for huh , tarik kerusi, duduk then key in your ic number. oh mula mula tu nanti dia hantar message saying that you are offered to go for this test. pastu procedure macam print surat tawaran tu je okay jom start cerita pasal test ni. you have to the language you wanna use first. bm ke bi. i took bm sebab nak selamat. karang tak faham seoalan tak ke naya haha. there was like 15 sections. banyak la banyak sungguh. i could not remember everything. but as i remembered. ada dia kasi rajah then you lukis balik. masa ni please sangat jaga mouse korang semua. sumpah cursor kat sekolah kan kadang kadang dia tah hape2 sikit. okay next one, ada dia macam bagi nombor, pastu dia blur kan, nak tengok otak kita ingat tak nombor2 tu semua haa.hafal la sekejap. haaa lupa nak bagitahu, no other things yang u boleh bawak masuk okay- no handphones. no pencil. no pen. no papers. no calculator. no everything !! memang IQ test gila sabar je lah huh =,= *baru sedar betapa pentingnya kertas dan pen masa ni haha. besides, ada jugak dia bagi gambar and cari persamaan. contohnya macam gambar bunga ros, bunga raya pastu pensel. mana yang sama? of course la bunga tu kan haaa macam tu. kinda easy at first, but to the end it was hard serious. macam kena fikir deep gila. ada jugak section dia bagi gambar pastu kita kena tanda mana bahagian yang tak lengkap. contoh kereta takde tayar kanan, tanda 'x' kat situ. next em, ada jugak they asked you for definitions. for example like 'almari' , jawapan dia tempat menyimpan pakaian ke. tapi makin lama makin payah lah perkataan dia. so be prepared. ada jugak dia tanyam who invented the telephone, tasik terbesar di dunia? mak kau memang aku hentam je haha nasib lah. but pray to Allah that Allah will give you chance to study there insya Allah. ada jugak soalan congak2 budak, alaa macam zaman sekolah rendah hehe. eg,ali ada dua buku, mak dia bagi lagi 2, berapa jumlah buku ada pada ali? kacang je yang tu insya Allah. kalau susah pun ada discount. percentage. oh me dun like haha. ada jugak soalan science oii, what is metabolisme? explain pembentukan hujan. masya allah dah berbulan aku tinggal zaman sekolah, memang tak lah aku nak ingat semua tu. haha lagi skali hentam kromo huhu. *exam ni 2 hours 30 minutes. i tell you tak sempat haha. tapi aku sempat lah alhmdulilah, tapi jawab pun macam cun je hahhaha puihh. takpe lah redha insya Allah , Allah tolong :)~~~~ habis tu, i met my friend lah kan, pergi breakfast kejap. kecut perut oii duduk lama2 kat computer lab tu. hehe . itu lah al kisahnya kelmarin haha. peeps byee

UJIAN PSYCHOMETRIC

ahhh dah alang alang ada kat rumah baik aku update je blog yang dah berhabuk ni. sumpah do blog zaman teletubbies lagi aku guna hehe. nasib la harap la takde orang yang baca kan post post lama cam malu jers. haha okay sekarang 21/4/14 hamboihh habis dah la masa cuti ku yang sungguh penuh dengan pelbagai suka dan suka puihh haha . okay hari ni nak cerita pasal ujian psychometric yang mara buat. aku ni rasa menyesal la pulak apply mara yang luar negara patutnya amik je lah dalam negara. bukan apa kena buat IB benda tu thapa mega punya susah tak tahu lah. mungkin rezeki ku ke arah itu jadi ku redha dengan apa yang bakal berlaku hehe. mesti pening kan? lah ceni kalau amik DN which stands for dalam negara, ada je yang kena buat IB tapi most of it buat foundation in science kat mana mana kolej mara then you can continue degree kat malaysia..rcmp ke manipal kat melaka ke. kalau yang LN tu pulak, most of it buat IB dulu. International bacalurrate apa benda tahh lebih kurang lah tu bunyi dia. this needs whole effort tau tak ya allah. orang kental serta tough sahaja mampu chewah #mohon sangat mendapat yang terbaik sebab tak tahu nak pergi ke tak. eh gila melencong ke mana dah ni hahahha okay PSYCOMETRIC TEST. ujian ni online. ada la masa dia tetapkan kan. 1 hour 15mins. cukup nya insya allah. macam scary tapi takde la sangat rasa macam biasa2 je. ada 4 bahagian. 1st tu IQ test. haa yang ni sedia la calculator dengan kertas ke pastu otak yang sempoi2 je, jangan ikut otak straight a's sangat hehe, sebab soalan dia macam nak trick kita. contoh la kan yang aku ingat kan ; brain, along, bin, ............. (what words comes next?? haaa macam tu. aku mana tahu taram je la ohoii haha) then apa eh, emm haaa ada part macam pasal sejarah lah. sejarah form 5 yang aku ingat lah. macam dia tanya apakah fungsi perlembagaan. ohoiii ada ke patut. mana ada buku teks sejarah dah. alah korang taram je. ataupun amik je smartphone korang. beli mahal mahal guna la hehe. search la sekejap hahhaha. haaa pastu part ni, yang ni lagi la korang kena search. dia tanya pasal logo mara la, bila mara bukak la, mara apa yang first bukak haaa. memang sempat untuk korang search cepat2 lah sebab dia ada time limit. bahagian last sekali is about ujian diri sendiri je. macam kalau nampah haiwan buat apa? or kau ni pendiam ke pemurah ke? haa cenggitu insya allah this one will be easy. tapi macam tu lah ye, haha yang pasti ada 4 bahagian. aku pun tak reti nak explain dah. tapi macam tu la. harap harap dapat lah membantu korang yang nak amik test mara ni nest year kan hehe. okay lah nak chow dah macam bosan pulak type type panjang ni hah. dah macam apa dah jari jemariku hehe. chow

gila blog berhabuk hik hok

assalamualaikum earthlings. oh my god last post masa 2012. bapak sengal doe. dah la tak berupdate tak bukak langsung pulak tu . ya allah apa benda la aku ni . well well kinda of tak tahu nak buat apa i mean i was so busy with my communication class yang baru sahaja tamat on the 12th april ulala rasa sedih la pulak. menitis air mata chewah. * hehe but my life was a little bit dark when my grandma passed away yesterday at 4.00am. it was the first time mandikan mayat, orang yang terdekat kembali ke rahmatullah :'(. ya allah, sesungguhnya yang hidup pasti akan pergi meninggal dunia yang fana ini. ya allah tempatkanlah nenek ku dikalangangan orang yang beriman. seriously i am not in the mood of updating my blog. *cehh padahal dah 2tahun tak bukak teruk gila haha haa satu lagi. oops opps im sitting for ujian psychometric tomorrow apa kejadah dia tanya i tak tahu lah. insya allah i'll post another one after the tets kay hehe :) bye assalamualaikum

i really miss those moments, guyssss :'(

assalamualaikum earthlings :) i just don't know why. but i have to explode these feelings i have throughout this year. i don't know. ya allah, help me in this kind of situation. guys, i'm writing something that i think we must get it back. you know the price of a friendship? what happen to us , sayang? why is this happening. atau mahirah sorang je yang rasa bahawasanya keakraban yang dicapai dulu tak macam sekarang. i know , i am no longer kat maher. instead it has been a year you know, leaving you guys, missing you guys like crazy . mahirah tak kata sapa yang salah dia tu ke dia ni. infact mahirah sendiri pun salah. where are those shoulders i always lean on to get rid off my tears, where are those laughters i always hear before, where are those jokes i always laugh together before? where is it? guys tell me. i love you guys a lot. mahirah tahu sangat bukan mahirah yang rasa ni semua, i'm in different school i know right, and i always pray to god, to keep the rest of us in kelantan safe. babes, i really love you guys, kenapa kita jadi macam ni? kenapa dah tak rapat? salah siapa? kalau ada masalah just cerita , we are suppost to know everybodys problem. tapi kenapa tak macam tu? semua orang busy sangat ke? sampai lupa? mahirah tak marah sapa sapa pun, saya bukan menuding jari kat sapa sapa. saya pun salah jugak. but does it make more sense if everybody is forgiving each other, kan lebih baik kalau macam tu. SYARA, i'm really sorry for not going to your sister's wedding. i know it hurts you a lot since no one go for that. maybe faktor hujan semua, jam tengah jalan, parents tak nak hantar. mahirah mintak maaf sangat sebab masa tu ada kat tempat lain, if i were here, i'm sure i'll be going. please dear, lembutkan hati awak maafkan diorang. i know it hurts , dear. but please. i dont know how to say. but i think i should tell this. mungkin mahirah cakap ni ada yang akan terasa. but i think this is for our best dear. i know ada sesetengan kita kita yang hot serta lawa, serta cantik mungkin berpegang title 'in a relationship'. but i hope, you guys still tak lupa girlfriends kita ni. no matter what , friends are the person that you share everything kan. mahirah faham , dulu pun saya couple jugak, well mungkin saya terleka masa tu kalau saya ketepikan awak semua. saya mintak maaf. but i believe manusia tak pernah tak buat salah kan? seriously, bukan niat saya nak cakap pasal ni, cuma kita kena fikir jugak hati dan perasaan kawan kawan rapat kita okay dear? bersyukur terhadap illahi, kalau relationship awak semua masih kekal abadi :) itu satu kejayaan, jaga lah your guy elok2. okay.? jangan lupa pelajaran> one most last thing, jangan pernah lupa allah, jangan pernah tipu parents sebab benda benda yang tak patut. tu nama dia astaghfirullah minta dijauhkan. dekatkan diri dengan allah, lebih2 lagi kita ni tak sempai seminggu bakal digelar mangsa spm. we are the seniors in the school. i'm sure you guys will have such a wonderful time. although saya takde sobsob. i wish i can be there to. i really miss those moments, sayang. seriously i really miss it. and lastly, sebagai penutup bicara, come on guys. kita selalu have fun together kan? lama dah kita tak rasa macam tu atas sebab2 tertentu. mungkin salah saya, mungkin salah ..tak tahu lah. mungkin salah semua lah. ya allah, buka lah pintu hati rakan rakanku, agar kami dapat menjalinkan hubungan yang lebih utuh.yang lebih baik yang diredhai-Mu. i wish you guys a happy holidayy. cheer urself okay? jangan sedih2. apa yang mahirah cakap tu sekadar pendapat. yang lemah itu dari diri saya sendiri :) assalamualaikum my really, truly, best girlfriends. dedicated to : my only girls in life. AIDA. SYARA. NADIA. TEN. PIQAL. SHAWA. NAR. ALYA.ARISHA :) <3 i heart you sangattttttttttttt