Assalamualaikum hello peeps :) MASYA ALLAH sister nampaknya dah berinci inci kot blog ni dengan ketebalan habuk yang tak dapat disangkal lagi. i looked at my last post regarding my birthday celeb last yea rmasa kmkn. goshhhhh how i miss them so much . well definitely atikah yang sekarang menetap di bangalore , indiaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. jauh gila , kita berbeza benua uhuks sobs crying endlessly. not to forget fami wawa payah and the rest.  fami was the one who will definitely be there whenever tough times happened to me. hmm post hari ni nak cerita soal masalah diri sendiri yang tah hape hape yang macam err gila. when life teaches you how to live with it, maka LIVE with it. when life teaches you not to be so-damn-manja-kededek, then try not to be one. try to adapt to your surroundings. what happened yesterday taught me to be careful of my words. extremely careful. its easy to hurt people and when u hurt them u yang akan gelabah dengan kesalahan yang dibuat. and when those happened, i could not even focus on my study, i started to think all over again which i know my friend didnt even bother abt it. you know this feeling which you think it is all about your fault. well definitely my fault. and i learnt from this. i learnt not to kacau people anymore. i learnt to appreciate people around me. and ahkak nak cerita sikit ni hah. and i should tell to the world ceh bajet haahaaha. praised to Him, i was given this bunch of housemates yang rasanya takde benda yang disorok pun except persaan jiwa dan dan raga hahahhahaha yang tu biar lah disimpan sorang2.  okay whatever it is, thanks to Him for giving me this 5 girls yang kadang kadang memang menguji kesabaran haaahahahaa and kadang2  are the one who willingly give their shoulder to be cry on omg terharuuuuuuu gilaaa. oh sorry sikit ye kak i memang manja kededek and i dont care. sebenarnya its not that manja kededek but i keep on thinking on what other's will feel if i did something wrong. sumpah lah aku rasa aku tak boleh buat jahat kat orang sebab end up aku akan fikir balik apa yang aku dah buat, hahhhahahaa sumpah lah i just found this kelebihan in me. to some, this might be kekurangan yang nyata, tapi this is me, what else i can do.   thanks to my Alya, currently in UITM Tapah. betul lah dia cakap, dont ever count on people too much. nanti end up kau kuciwa bro. learnt to stand on your own feet, seriously learn that. nanti tak menyesal. i am learning. i am. really am. thought i was strong enough to keep on going, but somehow i really need all the support form those around.and once you're attached to someone, oh damn sumpah lah rasa lain gila kalau kau tiba tiba buat masalahh dengan dia. and yeah baru lah hargai all those memories. ya allah hidup ni cukup complex. lagi susaah dari e = mc2 yang physics punya teori. hidup ni lagi susah dari segala falsafah falsafah yang ada kat dunia. hidup ni jugak lagi susah daripada semua law law yang ada kat atas muka bumi ini.  do realise that sometimes diri sendiri yang makan diri sendiri. ya allah, please give me this strength to keep on going, to be as lembut as i can be ( bukan lembut tu eh, lembut hati) YA ALLAH, AKU SEORANG KERAS KEPALA DAN KASAR, MAKA LEMBUTKAN LAH HATI KU INI. betul im so keras kepala. sape yang nak kawin dengan aku ni tahan ah ye hahaahahahhaha ( pehhh bajet gilosss takpe jangan risau belum lagi). okay i think that's all for today, i nak pergi hafal slp . esok exam english omg dah lah semua dah berhabuk dan berkarat okay bye uolls see ya :) 

assalamualaikum peeps tak jawab dosa, jawab nak kar saya. hahahahaha yucks gurau je kay iolls gurau je :P when you're given a group of awesome human creatures yang susah gila nak jumpa atas muka bumi Allah ini, dengan rendah diri tolong tolong sangat appreciate mereka ini. as for me, i did. really did. it started when you feel very 'being appreciate by em', when they suddenly buat prank yang macam you tak sangka2 langsung, when you're being fooled by their instructions hahahaha ni sumpah aku tak tahu la fius mana dalam otak aku yang terputus masa tu, ( this post was written like 2 weeks ago so untuk pendekkan cerita, i post gambar je lah okay ehhehe)

 thanks tiktik for being the birthday party organiser :) thanks for the cake dear classmates and roomates and batch mates muah ciked,

# estrella # seseri # kmkn : teman seperjuangan dari seseri sampailah ke kmkn. love you babiesss :*

dear classmates yang terchentaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa, boleh tahan best prank planner jugak ah korang ni. really apprecate it guys :) lovemuch 

Manusia merancang namun peraancangan Allah yang terbaik (Al Imran 3:54)
Assalamuaikum blog readers. Here we go on this chinese new year break. Alhamdulilah ada jugak masa nak update blog tersayang ni kan. Hmm the year of 2015? Alhamdulilah I started with a big smile, with a huge mission, with trillion efforts to achieve my  thousands dreams . Ya rabb, please ease my journey on this awesome year. I’ve turned 19 and sikit lagi kot boleh lah nak kawin. Ceh bajet gila nak kawin ahahahhaha lulz merah lulz. Panjang lagi kot hayat dirimu ini, karier yang dipilih bukan lah sesenang yang difikirkan. A way to heaven , in sha allah. Challenges faced during foundation year barulah seciput out of tak tahu lah nak cakap..as if baru 2% dari 100% yang bakal ditempuhi in degree level nanti.
Ya Allah dikala aku diuji dengan seribu cabaran, aku memohon diberi ketabahan semaksimum mungkin, diberi seribu satu daya untuk melawan kata kata syaitanurajim yang sentiasa berbisik secara sengaja dan tidak sengaja. Ya Rabb, I realize how small I am this entire huge world. Engkau Maha Adil Ya Allah. Ye aku tahu, engkau Si Pemberi Rezeki dan engkau juga Si Pemberi NIkmat sejak azali kepada hamba hambamu ini. The heart keep on saying that im not strong enough to face this, I once fall the moment I received this message aka ‘this khabar berita’. That moment when I feel that I failed to be a good sister for my only big bro. that moment when I feel that im losing my other half. That moment which I hope I could go back to my past years. That moment when I hope to hug him and stand by him in the hospital. That moment when I know my mum was in tears and I just didn’t want to see that nor to feel it. Okay ** I just couldn’t write more as this tiny clear sprinkle is flowing all around my face right now. Ya allah please give me the strength. 
Sayang, Im sorry for not being near you the moment that you knew you’re diagnosed with _____. Its hard for me to accept this fate but who am I to deny the this fate. I know you’re strong, strong enough to grow up be a good son of abah and mama. I know you’re struggling in this entire life with the disease you’re diagnosed with. You’re too young for all of this, too young to enjoy this world with you being sick. But bear in mind, Allah takkan uji hambanya melainkan hambanya itu mampu menanggungnya. Go on with your life big brother, and I will always pray for you. WILL ALWAYS until the last day im on this earth, in sha allah. Abang, make abah and mama proud of you. Kalau lah kakak diberi pilihan, kakak sanggup nak tanggung derita abang tu tapi Allah nak uji abang. Kakak lagi tak sanggup nak tengok abang tanggung sorang2 tapi abang kena kuat. Its part of your life, you’re just 14. See, panjang lagi perjalanan hidup yang penuh pancaroba ini. Promise me, sentiasa ingat Allah and doa so that abang boleh hidup macam manusia lain semula in sha allah. Nanti kakak besar, i will be your doctor and mama’s okay? Don’t worry cause I love you too much and there’s no word to describe kakak’s feeling right now.
Lots of love, kakak. 

hello 2015 and yeah hello 1436 hijrah. O Allah may this year will be a better year as i've been living for 18 years and 18 days and okay (tak tahu berapa hours, minutes serta seconds) . nothing much to update this blog tapi rasanya dah berkurun lamanya tak update (kihkih macam bajet gila padahal last month je kot. And obviously from each post before I did write yang I tak update berkurun en ahahhaha ini semua poyo). All the memories spent in 2014 was hard to be forgotten..definitely ! semua masalah ada. masalah dengan kawan. masalah dengan hati dan perasaan. Masalah jiwa dan raga bakul basket semualah, kalau nak cakap satu persatu memang alamatnya READERS BARU I TAK LARAT LAAA NAK BACAA ( ahahhahahaa mohon terasa orang yang sepatutnya muehehe .. kira dah bayar hutang ah ni hehe J J . 0-0 ah kan ?

Allah berfirman: “jadikan hari ini lebih baik daripada hari yang semalam, jadikan hari esok lebih paik daripada hari ini”. Rasanya firman Allah tu dah cukup lengkap serta padat nak hurai azam tahun ni. Azam semua orang ada kan, but sometimes tu la masalahnya azam2 ni semua takde lah kekal selamanya, selalunya berangan je lebih. Hmm rasanya nak tambah satu azam ah, nak cari boyfriend wooooo lulz nya merah lulz gila. Bla ah boyfriend ampun sikit TAK SAMPAI MASA LAGI AH hamek kau sampai capslock kot hhahaha. In sha allah, the year 2015, will be full of colours, baik warna biru yang tenang with awesome memories built in KMKN , mahupun warna hitam yang akan menjadi memori pahit ataupun warna kelabu yang akan meng’dull’kan hidup ni sekejap. But yeah, there’s a quote that says, your past mistakes are meant to guide you NOT to define you. see, mana ada orang yang perfect kan. You will always do mistakes ikut lah dari ceruk dunia mana pun memang tetap akan ada mistakes yang kita buat. I WAS CREATED TO MAKE MISTAKES, NOT TO FAKE PERFECTIONS.

Hmm first day in KMKN was spent wisely with my mates yang gila-gila sumpah kalau nak sebut kat sini rasanya penuh blog ni kot muehehhe.

1)     Teman jogging : syu’a , fami , tiktik

2)     Teman movie, atikah tinggi kurus lidi, intan, humaira, raihanah, thierah ( ceh ni masa tengok kaho – naho (( like this was my second Hindustan movie, ampun sikit I mana tengok cerita Hindustan. Tapi kan kan ,end up nangis jugak tengok cerita ni, ada lah dalam 1 tissue je air mata oooops that embarrassed me a lot haha

3)     Teman cerita pasal budak2 kat kolej, pasal instagram (( walhal takde insta pun) : tiktik (ofcourse my forever bedmate yang dicintai puii nya puii haha AND syu’a (( ni pakar pendengar masalah cinta. Just broke up with your boyfie?? call her maybe hahahah kan syu syu ;))

4)     Teman nak dapatkan semangat balik kalau rasa down yang teramat sangat . you know what when you fall as if jatuh yang tergolek golek yang dah tak mampu  nak bangun sendiri and when you really need a hand to hold to, a shoulder to cry on : semestiya my rakan rakan F317 ( aqils.yun.tiktik)

5)     Teman yang boleh bawak gelak sampai tahap giga, yang kalau ada meter yang boleh ukur tahap ‘gelak’ dalam hidup ni kan diorang ni memang boleh buat meter tu rosak (LOL) : ((banyak kategori lah sikit eh haha)) :

·        Teman seperjuangan dalam kelas semestinya M1 (( muiz kot rasanya hahahaah eh nanti dia bajet tahap giga cemana lantak ah ahha jujur ni kot haha, raja , soul and awesome girlfriends

·        Teman sebilik semestinya lah kan, yang pagi petang siang malam tengok muka yang sama je, sedih sama sama, gelak sama sama, makan sama sama, outing sama sama semualah sama sama haha

·        Dan juga teman se programme, kisah lah daks engineering ke, daks pharmacy ke, daks vinayaka ke, daks fib ke, daks rcmp ke semua tu boleh masyukkkk je J berkawan biar beribu en, berkasih biar satu weee.

Pehhh penat ah nak tulis lagi hahahha. Ni sementara cuti sebab keputeraan kedah je jadi lah tak busy mana. Class pun tarak, buku pun belek2 macam tu je ( at least belek daripada tersimpan atas meja tu kan ahahahha ) 

(all of yang kat atas ni dikarang seminggu yang lepas. okay sekian :) 

semester 1 is overrrr **nak melompat sampai ke bulan boleh tak??

ahkak rasa malu pulak nak update blog kali ni. p/s : post sebelum ni  dikarang two months ago tapi hari ni baru karang cipan betul hahaha. sorry earthlings , loads of works menyebabkan i tak menang tangan buat kerja menang kaki ke ooops :P okay assalamualaikum again it has been months or what since the second last post. being a pre medic student is not easy. 

(( and that one upthere was last week's punya penulisan. penulisan ke wahahah )) its like when i first touched down in kota bharu ececece bajet naik flight, maksud i arrived in kotbharu from alor star, i did say to myself that i'll be updating my blog..like uhh...like everyday but it ends not as planned *argh benci diri ini. you see i keep on proscatinate so yeah tak berupdate lah blog ni. 
and i freakingly dont know what to write now, where is my mood. i have slept for like 3 hours. i mean it was almost 3hours betapa teruknya. dah lah maghribnya. astaghfirullah ya allah, forgive me for my vast amount of sins. sesungguhnya aku hamba mu yang lemah maka ya allah ampunkan dosaku. Engkau lah yang Maha Pemaaf :)
OKAY. sem 1 was over and i've been thinking how my result would be. i dont ask for a 4rata cause i know it is not my type. i wish to have one. no not one,.lots! In shaa Allah, i will have that one too i will. okay meh akak nak cerita pasal sem 1 foundation in science kolej mara kuala nerang. faham tak susah gila rasa macam nak amik phd. i was like duhhhhh the hell is this. couldnt imagine macam mana orang lain jawab dengan tenangnya sumpah la diorang telan buku ke apa. whatever it is, i felt very grateful that i ended my final for sem 1 dengan tenang sekali hahahaha tenang ke? i guess. hoping so. ya allah, easy my marks to give me an A !!
toodles for now. will keep on updating. jangan la marah kalau tak berupdate pun. cause this is my private diary mannnn. tapi semua orang boleh baca hahahahahhaha okay stop. asslamualaikum :)

officially a student of KMKN ? KMKN ??? apakah

my god weeks rasanya tak update ( eh bajet je weeks ,, its months okay merah ahhhahaha sedar sikit aip aip) . so where should i start. being an official KMKN student ahah rasa macam takde life. eh no no no. not for  me , lantak lah orang kata aku macam tak layak nak amik medic. im not a doctor with those nerd face or thick glasses (hakikatnya pakai jugak hahahahhah) . i dream to be a doctor who enjoys life like heavenly hehe yang tak serabut dengan buku je i wanna be a person yang suka buat orang happy yang suka gelak kuat gila gila with my girlfriendsss yang gedikkk yeah ((doesn't mean you have to be gedik to enjoy life la weh , come on )) schedule in KMKN sumpah macam seseri. suddenly my face full with tears reminiscing the moments in seseri. how is my 216 siblings doing right now. but not to worry i have 5 of them in here hahhahaha and because of that we realised that no matter where seserians go, they never forget their sisters. ahh sayang estrella too much. dah keluar sekolah pun semangat berkobar2 okay u know the day bila kita decide nak pakai baju estrella semua orang awesome en ? and everybody's like staringgggg at us, eh eh kau apahal. nak la tu cehhh AHHAHAHA.  emm if i would to open the story on my study life there, and i have to get at least 2 rolls of toilet tissues :( uhuks. ye lah sedar diri amik course yang sangat la berat mata memandang , berat lagi bahu memikul kan i have to keep my head up and ahead. no matter things happen , keep smiling. smiling pun kadang2 dah bila otak tepu tahap concentration yang paling high dah nak buat  macam mana lagi kannnn.  i was yet so lucky to have my estrella sisters as my roomate plus sorang budak science johore. okay what :) at least tak awkward. but well i do believe in creating new pals and mates. staying in the room F317 bapak panas sebab takde tingkah *sigh. tapi tak pe bersyukur dekat degan cermin hahahahahhaha. my girls AQILS TIKAH AND YUN, they light up my every day in kmkn and sure i'll never lose them except for death. M1 - classmates i pulak gila gila uolls. ahh awesome gilaaaa rasa nak peluk semua orang okay. we only just met and we gonna be sure that we will be bestfriend insya allah :) 17 people in a class rasanya tu class paling kecik i pernah ada. heaven kan? one more thing you should know WE WILL FACE THIS SAME FACES FOR THE UPCOMING FIVE YEARSSSSSSSSSSSSS. BAYANGKANNNN ??? allah je tahu betapa boleh rapat nya kan. ya Allah, make this friendship stay until jannah. put our hearts together as brothers and sisters. mana tahu ada yang kawin ke kan ooops hahahahaha aku tak, cop tak :) meh nak cerita rutin harian .  ahad sampai khamis. - bangun - solat - iron tudung (wajib eh haha ) - mandi - makan - pergi class. lagi heaven kalau hari tu lecture tak banyak which is on tuesday sumpahhh rasa macam nak tido je memanjang hehe- 2.30 : class finished -.lunch - lepak library ((most of the time to avoid sleepiness during noon)) - dinner - solat maghrib isya + tazkirah + kulimin - prep - supper ( is always a cup of hot chocolate ahh yumyum )- balik bilik - halau charlie and the chocolate factory and binatang terbang hijau ( mesti korang pelik kan nanti i post gambar bagi uolls tengok kay hehe) and ahah ni part paling malas nak ulas. midsem exam in less then a month. okay go die. jom bunuh diri sama sama. astaghfirullahalazim mahirah. hdkcsfgsicuhdsdfuisnfiabfvpavd like omg dekat gila dah. you know what there are times when i feel like there's nobody in this world that could help my entire woes dekat kmkn. there are times i feel so lonely. there are times i feel to burst in tears for the rest of that entire day sumpahh. kadang kadang rasa baik takpayah hidup lah macam ni. and i just dont like to write bout this. cause later i'll regret what kind of path im taking ahead. crazy duhh mahirah? are you? tak kan. so live your life. where's your intention you've been saying to yourself like everyday. ya allah , please give me the strength to go on with ma life insya allah i will. no matter what happens, even when you dont have any shoulder to cry on, remember that Allah always listen to you. He's the best companion in every muslim's life, right? ' Mengadulah kepada Allah, nescaya dia mendengar nya' seee, even pepatah pun ada cakap macam tu  sit back. relax mahirah. you can do it. jangan ikut orang. ikut cara kita berjaya jugak insya allah :)

FOUND MY first KELEMAHAN

 
hey my life not yours blog hikhik. oh kebosanan nya aku ini malam . haru je asa nak buat apa tah sekarang ni. okay mari bercerita tentang semalam macam best je macam best je. okay post ni sebenarnya erti kata lain nak cakap bahawasanya you have to give yourself a chance in expressing your own feeling. masa seseri memang aku ratu diary hehe semua ceritera ada dalam diary aku almaklumlah aku kan homesick uhuks *kononnya lah haha
oh macam aku tak tahu nak start kat mana . haila putus fius betul lah aku haha tak cukup litar ke merah  (( setiap kali entri post mesti tanya pasal macam mana nak start ayat en haha )) tak kisah la nak start macam mana pun yang aku tahu tittle aku punya post kali ni memang mendalam gila. really found something hidden in myself rupanya. ce teka menda haha alkisahnya macam ni aku pergi keluar makan en dengan sisa baki kex yang ada kat kelantan kan . tu pun sapa je yang ada. sumpah i tell you, we never expect that we would go this far - seriously. sumpah ni tau. you know macam kitaorang rapat gila yang gila punya rapat macam takde border langsung (( ade aaa kalau laki pompuan =.= )) we never expect to be THISSSSSSSSSSSSSS CLOSE until you feel a kind of missing-them when they go for their separate ways. its like half of me is with you guyss :'(  *nangis air mata darah sekali pun diorang pergi jugak dek kerana mengejar cita cita yang diimpikan dalam hidup masing masing. uhuks aku tak nak emo malam ni tapi masalahnya memang maacam tu. ya allah, why are people going away from ma life. why the hell is this happening. ???? astaghfurullah sabar lah merah dah namanya hidup , ni bukan makan ke tidur ke. emm terima je lah. feels like badz baru je pergi haila ni ameer and tiah pulak nak pergi. :'( how could i face my world without them ecece tapi ye lah aku tak tipu langsung ni woi.
alamak hai dah mencarut sangat ni hai hahaha. okay em its like everybody have their own kekurangan yet kelebihan. it depends on you whether you show em or not. but it was obviously kantoi gila bila benda ni jadi masa keluar tu en apa la aku. teruk oi sumpah nak sorok dalam bantal  je muka aku time tu. okay satu satu nya benda kelemahan abadi aku ni is AKU TAK BOLEH KALAU ORANG LAKI TENUNG AKU even with those crazy bffs sumpah tiba2 akan rasa macam darah naik berderu-deru ke muka seolah2 ada orang simbah darah tau tak. haila merah mana boleh doe macam ni haha. nanti kau masuk universiti ke mende ke assignments lagi kena buat confirm dalam group. tak main la group all girls macam kat seseri, confirm2 dah mix. dah kalau sekali ditenung orang lelaki kau malu alamatnya sampai bila bila pun tak siap kerja kau. okay chill merah. haha you gotta find ways to make situations like discussions in group tak jadi awkward , kalau tak baik bukak universiti sendiri. omg im a weirdo hahaha., ye ke weird? bukan cute ke? hahahahhaha haru lah aku macam ni kalau ada ubat nak sembuh penyakit aku ni confirm aku pergi cari kat guardian ke watson ke haha. hojadi beringat lah ye. if we are meant to bump into each other, and if you're a guy mohon segala mohon jangan pandang mata aku hahaa confirm aku gelabah semacam pastu mula lah mencarut habis sebab nak cover malu hahaha. 

#throwback. halimatus saadiah. merangkap PA aku selamanya kat kex. merangkap neighbour paling aku rapat. merangkap driver jugak hahahaha

                               
                                          #farewell tiah uhuks. will meet ya later huks huks :'(

# farewell ameer and amin . semoga kita berjumpa eccecece :P
wasalam untuk hari ni hehe :)

If Allah is the reason for you to start , why not ?

yeay kinda back after weeks of not updating any news. to be honest i was quiet since i was so busy preparing myself for the intake to PALAM. yeah i got PALAM to pursue asasi sains and i yest accept the offer to PALAM but still in mind im hoping for mara - rather in the sense of IB or the normal foundation in science so that i can be called "DR" one day chewah berangan bhai haha. theres nothing much happened as a SPM leaver *oii dah lama kot tinggal spm. otak pun boleh tahan karat. chemistry macam lupa je semua haha. staying at home reading story books and newspapers *ni sumpah sometimes je baca haha* was my daily routine. eh jangan lupa eh jadi driver and bibik jugak. haha
eh nak cakap pasal apa eh? em okay let me start the path of knowing that i received MARA's offer. oh i was deadly the most elated person in the world. born to be not a really-genius person i really thanked Allah for this golden opportunity He had given to me. sumpah rasa nak nangis air mata darah. it was like i slept early on that 24th may. and out of the blue idk what woke me up at around 4.45am then was so shocked. *There was a jaw-drop expression on my face seriously. and i saw 700++ messages from 18 conversations from my Whatsapp !! !! omg omg omg

a friend of mine named halimatus - i'd known her since KEX. she is actually my neighbour also. i shared almost everything with her , well her cheerful-type-of-person makes me feel to laugh every second every minute every hour with her. and one of the messages from her was...
GUESS 
WHAT...

ahh i burst in tears. i was blurred. i was astounted. i was on top of the cloud. i was at the peak of a mountain. i was ' IS THIS A DREAM. DONT TELL ME YESS. OR AM I BERANGAN ANGAN? ' ya allah only allah knows my heart was beating like i'll die in 30 seconds. there's no word i could say that time. and my head yet mouth kept on saying 'Alhamdulilah Alhamdulilah' for thousand times. to those people outside who is much better than me, this maybe a emmph to them but not to me. i really felt very grateful for what i received. 
Insya allah i'll be doing foundation in Science for a year in Kolej Mara Kuala Nerang and will pursue my study in Medicine at Royal College of Medicine  Perak. this is what i hoped for so please pray for my success insya allah. 
okay so KMKN ni cane eh? haha. alamak hai kedah oii jauh nya from kelantan memang tak dapat balik lah aku en masa pulang bermalam haha. homesick la nanti aaa cemana ni takpelah kena kuat. nama lagi nak belajar. if you dont take the challenge in life then how can you improve . insya allah this will be my path to be doctor as what i aimed for. so that's why - if Allah is the reason for you to start , reach the sky and grab the stars :)

MARA'S INTERVIEW at KOLEJ MARA BANTING

HOLA LOLA. haha okayh kembali bersua kita bersama. haaa jom la pulak nak cerit pasal interview mara ni hah. mana nak start hah emm haha. okay fine kita orang pergi hari jumaat which yang pergi ni my dad and i je taw. pastu macam muqri ni manja lah kan, of course la atok aku yang duduk keyel tu nak jumpa cucu kesayangan dia, bodek punya bodek mak aku, akhirnya adikku yang seorang ini ikut jugak. haha awesome lah jugak bila ada 3 orang dalam kereta takde la bohsan sangat kan. we departed from our house around 11am and arrived safely around 8pm. jam oii keyel hari jumaat. aku dah tak boleh nak duduk senyap dalam kereta haha.gerak sana gerak sini nasib lah. malam tu jugak buat research bagai 'kononnya lah' .punya la takut sampai pasal mara pun baca goshh haha.keesokannya pagi2 pun buat research jugak masya allah haha. baca kenapa nak jadi doct la. why gynecology la? why wanna go overseas la? haha nanti karang kena soal tak ke mampus tak boleh jawab. haha. tepat pkul 12 lebih2, maka bertolak lah kami dari shah alam ke banting. hadui kau hati aku macam berdebar oi jantung atas lantai rasa nak baling jauh jauh je haha.alkisahnya sampai la kolej mara banting. mak kau macam sekolah bhai terkejut aku ya allah. takkan la nak masuk sekolah balik masya allah tak sanggup. tapi sumpah yang mana nak enjoy university life, kmb ni memang kena out of the list jauh2. sabar je la,. sekolah aku yang seseri lagi lawa haha.

arrived at 1.10pm cenggitu and my heart was like pumping like i wanna die on the spot haha. my stomach was singing huih macam apa dah. then my dad kata, takpe la kita pergi makan. i was hah makan?
oh makanan apa pun aku tak nak sentuh dah masa ni haa gila gila. then it when awesomely. i was in J group. number 5 :) haha.  pastu mula2 masuk bilik interview tu. i was grouped in group of 10 and there was like chairs arranged in a semi-circle shape. so our first challenge was a group discussion,
                  " you're in an air balloon. the air balloon will fall down. discuss who should you remove." ahh tak ingat lah macam mana soalan dia. kan ada 10 orang so different person different characters. ada prime minister, emma maembong ke. mine was tony fernandez. :) tokei air asia ooh haha. then defend urself lah supaya you stay atas air balloon tu. next soalan is pun group discussion jugak. fikir je. basically they wanna see how you think. how you solve problem. can you speak in front of people? haaa camtu je insya allah boleh junior-juniorku huhu. last but not least, it was an individual interview. kawan-kawanku punya soalan ya allah susah weh, poligami la. hudud la. astaghfirullah ya allah aku bersyukur sangat masa kena soalan ni. alhmdulilah sangat tak kena soalan macam tu. mine was about
                   " DEFINE HAPPINESS TO YOU" ya allah allahu nak melompat masa tu. alhamdulilah kat KEX dah belajar macam mana nak jawab soalan interview. what's the point withdrawing your parents moneyy like almost 1000 ringgit kot end up you don't even use the techniques you've learnt , right? insya allah thanks to KM and capt and KEXITO haha. seriously in any interviews, the things we learnt in Kex really help me through out all those interviews i attended before. sumpah swear. and yet whatever it is, thanks to my daddy, mummy, sarah, abang, and muqri haha *muqri bagi support ke? bagi okay haha . thats all bye peeps.

UKM Ujian Saringan Permata Pintar.

oyeah ku kembali semula haha. okay hari ni nak cerita pasal UKM test hik hok. punya la berangan nak nagun awal oiii kelmarin. twngok jam '6.45!!' . ya allah melompat aku dari katilku empuk nan lembut puihh haha. with my daddy yang outstation, dengan serta mertanya tugas driver diambil olehku haha. bibik pun aku driver pun aku haduss me so tired. tapi bila lagi kita nak berbakti dekat parents kita kan, maka dengan rasminya keluar lah rumah dengan muqri and maisarah hantar diorang pergi sekolah. dan seterusnya nak pergi amik exam. al kisahnya exam ni pulak kat sekolah lama mama aku , smkkk1 . hadoi jadi ku tahu selok belok sekolah itu haha. on the way nak pergi rasa macam lambat je lagi. sekali sampai kat flyover aku pergi u-turn pulak. aku apa lagi gelabah tahap mega lah, jam dah 7.45 dah ohoiii ikut hati aku nak terbang je kalau lah boleh jadi superman haha. kisah lah yang tu, sampai sekolah smkkk1 tu, terus pergi computer lab. my heart was like on the floor sumpah. rasa macam dup dap dup dap gila. bukak pintu tengok dah ada la empat lima orang. thank Allah, Allah nak tolong aku jumpa pulak ex-mates ku di maher - arif and syamim. waduuuu rasa macam jejak kasih pun ada. sebenarnya kami masing-masing dapat tawaran ke mara dan sbp habis pmr dulu. kira macam reunion lah jugak kan haha. then the moment i was not waiting for huh , tarik kerusi, duduk then key in your ic number. oh mula mula tu nanti dia hantar message saying that you are offered to go for this test. pastu procedure macam print surat tawaran tu je okay jom start cerita pasal test ni. you have to the language you wanna use first. bm ke bi. i took bm sebab nak selamat. karang tak faham seoalan tak ke naya haha. there was like 15 sections. banyak la banyak sungguh. i could not remember everything. but as i remembered. ada dia kasi rajah then you lukis balik. masa ni please sangat jaga mouse korang semua. sumpah cursor kat sekolah kan kadang kadang dia tah hape2 sikit. okay next one, ada dia macam bagi nombor, pastu dia blur kan, nak tengok otak kita ingat tak nombor2 tu semua haa.hafal la sekejap. haaa lupa nak bagitahu, no other things yang u boleh bawak masuk okay- no handphones. no pencil. no pen. no papers. no calculator. no everything !! memang IQ test gila sabar je lah huh =,= *baru sedar betapa pentingnya kertas dan pen masa ni haha. besides, ada jugak dia bagi gambar and cari persamaan. contohnya macam gambar bunga ros, bunga raya pastu pensel. mana yang sama? of course la bunga tu kan haaa macam tu. kinda easy at first, but to the end it was hard serious. macam kena fikir deep gila. ada jugak section dia bagi gambar pastu kita kena tanda mana bahagian yang tak lengkap. contoh kereta takde tayar kanan, tanda 'x' kat situ. next em, ada jugak they asked you for definitions. for example like 'almari' , jawapan dia tempat menyimpan pakaian ke. tapi makin lama makin payah lah perkataan dia. so be prepared. ada jugak dia tanyam who invented the telephone, tasik terbesar di dunia? mak kau memang aku hentam je haha nasib lah. but pray to Allah that Allah will give you chance to study there insya Allah. ada jugak soalan congak2 budak, alaa macam zaman sekolah rendah hehe. eg,ali ada dua buku, mak dia bagi lagi 2, berapa jumlah buku ada pada ali? kacang je yang tu insya Allah. kalau susah pun ada discount. percentage. oh me dun like haha. ada jugak soalan science oii, what is metabolisme? explain pembentukan hujan. masya allah dah berbulan aku tinggal zaman sekolah, memang tak lah aku nak ingat semua tu. haha lagi skali hentam kromo huhu. *exam ni 2 hours 30 minutes. i tell you tak sempat haha. tapi aku sempat lah alhmdulilah, tapi jawab pun macam cun je hahhaha puihh. takpe lah redha insya Allah , Allah tolong :)~~~~ habis tu, i met my friend lah kan, pergi breakfast kejap. kecut perut oii duduk lama2 kat computer lab tu. hehe . itu lah al kisahnya kelmarin haha. peeps byee

UJIAN PSYCHOMETRIC

ahhh dah alang alang ada kat rumah baik aku update je blog yang dah berhabuk ni. sumpah do blog zaman teletubbies lagi aku guna hehe. nasib la harap la takde orang yang baca kan post post lama cam malu jers. haha okay sekarang 21/4/14 hamboihh habis dah la masa cuti ku yang sungguh penuh dengan pelbagai suka dan suka puihh haha . okay hari ni nak cerita pasal ujian psychometric yang mara buat. aku ni rasa menyesal la pulak apply mara yang luar negara patutnya amik je lah dalam negara. bukan apa kena buat IB benda tu thapa mega punya susah tak tahu lah. mungkin rezeki ku ke arah itu jadi ku redha dengan apa yang bakal berlaku hehe. mesti pening kan? lah ceni kalau amik DN which stands for dalam negara, ada je yang kena buat IB tapi most of it buat foundation in science kat mana mana kolej mara then you can continue degree kat malaysia..rcmp ke manipal kat melaka ke. kalau yang LN tu pulak, most of it buat IB dulu. International bacalurrate apa benda tahh lebih kurang lah tu bunyi dia. this needs whole effort tau tak ya allah. orang kental serta tough sahaja mampu chewah #mohon sangat mendapat yang terbaik sebab tak tahu nak pergi ke tak. eh gila melencong ke mana dah ni hahahha okay PSYCOMETRIC TEST. ujian ni online. ada la masa dia tetapkan kan. 1 hour 15mins. cukup nya insya allah. macam scary tapi takde la sangat rasa macam biasa2 je. ada 4 bahagian. 1st tu IQ test. haa yang ni sedia la calculator dengan kertas ke pastu otak yang sempoi2 je, jangan ikut otak straight a's sangat hehe, sebab soalan dia macam nak trick kita. contoh la kan yang aku ingat kan ; brain, along, bin, ............. (what words comes next?? haaa macam tu. aku mana tahu taram je la ohoii haha) then apa eh, emm haaa ada part macam pasal sejarah lah. sejarah form 5 yang aku ingat lah. macam dia tanya apakah fungsi perlembagaan. ohoiii ada ke patut. mana ada buku teks sejarah dah. alah korang taram je. ataupun amik je smartphone korang. beli mahal mahal guna la hehe. search la sekejap hahhaha. haaa pastu part ni, yang ni lagi la korang kena search. dia tanya pasal logo mara la, bila mara bukak la, mara apa yang first bukak haaa. memang sempat untuk korang search cepat2 lah sebab dia ada time limit. bahagian last sekali is about ujian diri sendiri je. macam kalau nampah haiwan buat apa? or kau ni pendiam ke pemurah ke? haa cenggitu insya allah this one will be easy. tapi macam tu lah ye, haha yang pasti ada 4 bahagian. aku pun tak reti nak explain dah. tapi macam tu la. harap harap dapat lah membantu korang yang nak amik test mara ni nest year kan hehe. okay lah nak chow dah macam bosan pulak type type panjang ni hah. dah macam apa dah jari jemariku hehe. chow

gila blog berhabuk hik hok

assalamualaikum earthlings. oh my god last post masa 2012. bapak sengal doe. dah la tak berupdate tak bukak langsung pulak tu . ya allah apa benda la aku ni . well well kinda of tak tahu nak buat apa i mean i was so busy with my communication class yang baru sahaja tamat on the 12th april ulala rasa sedih la pulak. menitis air mata chewah. * hehe but my life was a little bit dark when my grandma passed away yesterday at 4.00am. it was the first time mandikan mayat, orang yang terdekat kembali ke rahmatullah :'(. ya allah, sesungguhnya yang hidup pasti akan pergi meninggal dunia yang fana ini. ya allah tempatkanlah nenek ku dikalangangan orang yang beriman. seriously i am not in the mood of updating my blog. *cehh padahal dah 2tahun tak bukak teruk gila haha haa satu lagi. oops opps im sitting for ujian psychometric tomorrow apa kejadah dia tanya i tak tahu lah. insya allah i'll post another one after the tets kay hehe :) bye assalamualaikum

i really miss those moments, guyssss :'(

assalamualaikum earthlings :) i just don't know why. but i have to explode these feelings i have throughout this year. i don't know. ya allah, help me in this kind of situation. guys, i'm writing something that i think we must get it back. you know the price of a friendship? what happen to us , sayang? why is this happening. atau mahirah sorang je yang rasa bahawasanya keakraban yang dicapai dulu tak macam sekarang. i know , i am no longer kat maher. instead it has been a year you know, leaving you guys, missing you guys like crazy . mahirah tak kata sapa yang salah dia tu ke dia ni. infact mahirah sendiri pun salah. where are those shoulders i always lean on to get rid off my tears, where are those laughters i always hear before, where are those jokes i always laugh together before? where is it? guys tell me. i love you guys a lot. mahirah tahu sangat bukan mahirah yang rasa ni semua, i'm in different school i know right, and i always pray to god, to keep the rest of us in kelantan safe. babes, i really love you guys, kenapa kita jadi macam ni? kenapa dah tak rapat? salah siapa? kalau ada masalah just cerita , we are suppost to know everybodys problem. tapi kenapa tak macam tu? semua orang busy sangat ke? sampai lupa? mahirah tak marah sapa sapa pun, saya bukan menuding jari kat sapa sapa. saya pun salah jugak. but does it make more sense if everybody is forgiving each other, kan lebih baik kalau macam tu. SYARA, i'm really sorry for not going to your sister's wedding. i know it hurts you a lot since no one go for that. maybe faktor hujan semua, jam tengah jalan, parents tak nak hantar. mahirah mintak maaf sangat sebab masa tu ada kat tempat lain, if i were here, i'm sure i'll be going. please dear, lembutkan hati awak maafkan diorang. i know it hurts , dear. but please. i dont know how to say. but i think i should tell this. mungkin mahirah cakap ni ada yang akan terasa. but i think this is for our best dear. i know ada sesetengan kita kita yang hot serta lawa, serta cantik mungkin berpegang title 'in a relationship'. but i hope, you guys still tak lupa girlfriends kita ni. no matter what , friends are the person that you share everything kan. mahirah faham , dulu pun saya couple jugak, well mungkin saya terleka masa tu kalau saya ketepikan awak semua. saya mintak maaf. but i believe manusia tak pernah tak buat salah kan? seriously, bukan niat saya nak cakap pasal ni, cuma kita kena fikir jugak hati dan perasaan kawan kawan rapat kita okay dear? bersyukur terhadap illahi, kalau relationship awak semua masih kekal abadi :) itu satu kejayaan, jaga lah your guy elok2. okay.? jangan lupa pelajaran> one most last thing, jangan pernah lupa allah, jangan pernah tipu parents sebab benda benda yang tak patut. tu nama dia astaghfirullah minta dijauhkan. dekatkan diri dengan allah, lebih2 lagi kita ni tak sempai seminggu bakal digelar mangsa spm. we are the seniors in the school. i'm sure you guys will have such a wonderful time. although saya takde sobsob. i wish i can be there to. i really miss those moments, sayang. seriously i really miss it. and lastly, sebagai penutup bicara, come on guys. kita selalu have fun together kan? lama dah kita tak rasa macam tu atas sebab2 tertentu. mungkin salah saya, mungkin salah ..tak tahu lah. mungkin salah semua lah. ya allah, buka lah pintu hati rakan rakanku, agar kami dapat menjalinkan hubungan yang lebih utuh.yang lebih baik yang diredhai-Mu. i wish you guys a happy holidayy. cheer urself okay? jangan sedih2. apa yang mahirah cakap tu sekadar pendapat. yang lemah itu dari diri saya sendiri :) assalamualaikum my really, truly, best girlfriends. dedicated to : my only girls in life. AIDA. SYARA. NADIA. TEN. PIQAL. SHAWA. NAR. ALYA.ARISHA :) <3 i heart you sangattttttttttttt

the best result ever, huh???? !!!

assalamualaikum and a very good evening or whatever it is called. yeah i'm back for like almost couple of months without updating damn i was so busy muehehe. nothing to update but sure i'll like to express my feeling. macam what the krik krik result sumpah teruk. ya allah tuhan je la tahu. hello wake up please. spm next year kot. toughest exam huh? yeah i know sangat kot. banyak benda kene hafal. bukan hafal entah tapi for sure beza dengan pmr yang sangat mudah la jugakkk *ceh sebab sekarang ni form 4, kate la mudah. masa form 3 dulu pun susah bagai nak rak jugak. since aku ni duduk sbp so result periksa keluar kat web dia lah kan.macam hell aku tengok baru ni ya allah. memang tak la aku nak sebut kat sini kan. buat malu muka je >< haha tapi confirm sangat2 lah bukan 6A seperti yang ditargetkan . alah nama lagi target kan,. memang tak dapat lah kan. hmmmmmmm yeah seperti yang sedia maklum, camni cerita dia................. okay i was in kuala lumpur seriously. after having my breakfast i checked on my facebook account checking my latest updates kot, then a friend of mine posted saying her results and i was like okay awhsomee nak check jugak :) punya berdebar tahap bapak tak tahu nak cakap. my heart popped out you know. my heart macam dup dap dup dap dup dap then i search my name.pastu tahu la GPK aku berapa. and i was like okay merosot. :( sedih dah kat situ, kira punya kira. num dalam batch pun teruk jugak ya allah. then i knew my next year class will be masyallah bercucuran air mata sumpah tak tipu. hugged my mum saying sorry. aku rasa macam orang paling capital 'B' masa tu, pressure bukan kepalang. my mum comforted me and just said 'its okay, result spm tu lagi penting. biasa lah duduk sekolah top. students semua pandai2. " and i stopped crying. and what i really know is that's it. that's life. you don't get everything you want. allah will give the best to you. tak semestinya result 9A tu result terbaik awak. tak semstinya pointer awak 4 flat tu result terbaik. kan? spm lagi penting. focus keep in focus. cakap je tak boleh kene ada usaha. okay byee. dah maghrib kot :) adios assalamualaikum xoxo, with prayers :D

i'm goin

argh damn it. astaghfirullah :( open minds please dear. tak nak balik sekolahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh faham tak ? tak nak balik. huh, serius malas nak update blog. k bye

GUYSSSSS!!! BE JEALOUS TO THOSE WOMEN YE ;)

MARHABAN RAMADHAN AL-MUBARAK 2012 :)

open hearts, open minds :) weheeee. assalamualaikum blog readers. oowh wah this is my new post after 6 weeks in the penjara of seseri haha. you know what, nobody can expects a life without all the gadgets. i couldn't imagine too the first time i step into that penjara. but yeah it has been like more than half a year i've been there, diri sudah menerima ketetapan diri yang berada di penjara. macam banduan okay. but,.. *Ade but tau haha :P, everythings went well. seriously, too much activities, loads of homewrok, thousand times of exam makes me feel crazy. its not actually crazy, it's more than crazy. ahaha. astaghfirullah, cikgu selalu cakap kalau dapat homework jangan nak merungut. okay fine!! dah telan tak tahu berapa subjects hari ni. argh stress. yang teramat. stress aku tak lah se'stress orang lain haha. hmm, for god sake, better late than never kan. ape tiba2 ni, okay cop, kita guna bahasa kiasan sikit, better be friends than never ;) orang selalu cakap, PUTUS HUBUNGAN TAKPE, PUTUS SILATURAHIM JANGAN.aik pelik kan? bukan sama ke.well i'm sure u guys do understand this :) alhamdulilah everythings goes well. sangan mengahragai detik itu. thankyou, friend :) anyway, SALAM RAMADHAN to all my respective blog readers weheeee.pejam celik pejam celik seee dah puasa, kalau puasa maksudnya apa? nak habis tahun weheeeeeeeeeeeeee. mygod tua dah goin to be 17 next year. maksudnya SPM. maksudnya university. maksudnya boleh kahwin!!!!!!!!!! hahahahha *owh gurau je tu. yek tak nak pikir lagi ah. women are very sensitive to their age seriously. eh eh, asyik2 melencong tempat lain je. salam ramdhan again. upgrade iman, delete dosa, approve pahala. :D insyallah akan dilakukan semua itu. memadangkan merupakan seorang pelajar di sbp, i'm very sure teh school has plan everything during this ramadhan , kalau ikut schedule, fuhhh this year confirm cukup terawikh hehe *since, tahun lepas dan tahun-tahun sebelumnya tak pernah cukup terawikh pun. insyallah kat sini cukup hehe. :) dan saya berazam nak khatamkan alquran this year, insyallah. ya allah, permudahkan urusan hamba mu ini. amin. and now, out of the blue *chewah, dengan penuh keterpaksaan nya saya perlu ke hostel at 1pm,since my aunt ade kerja. i was like, what the, dah kene balik penjara.????????????????? NO!!!. camne-camne pun terpaksa jugak. goodbye fellows :'( i don't want to say that but i need to. hurmm, ~goodbye to my loved ones, mama, abah, my sis and my bros, ~goodbye to my bestest girlfriends.love you guysss ~goodbye my ex schoolmates. maherians, seriously i miss u guys :) goodbye and goodbye people :) assalamualaikum wbt. SELAMAT MENUNAIKAN IBADAH PUASA weheee. xoxo,gossip girl. haha. muahhh :D

aaaa family dah gerak balik kelantan :(

asslamualaikum blog readers. ahhhh , see mama dah balik. sedih gle tahap tak tahu nak cakap. you never know how does it feel to stay like hundred kilometers from your parents. kebiasaannya, bye2 sana, bye2 sini, then tears startes to rolled down the face. but today tak, sebab cousins penuh keliling pinggang. macam aaaaa malu lah jugak kalau nak berdrama air mata :(. but the heart understands it completely tau. rasa nak nangis sangat. 2 months to go baru bole balik hometown, tak ke gile jugak nama dia. ya allah, engkau selamatkan lah perjalanan mama and the rest. i'll miss you guys so much abah, mama, sarah, marzuqi and my little bro , muqri :(. result nak keluar dah ni kot. habes lahh. harap2 lah semua okay. i'm hoping for the best for my next result. duduk seseri ni macam orang gile jugak kadang2. keliling pinggang ialah orang yang bukak buku 24/7 argh bangggg stress gile okayy. malas dah update :) hehe. nak sambung nangis la jawab dia. byee assalamualaikum

alhamdulilah syukur i've read everything

woaaaaaaaaaaa the clock struck 2.17am right now. and yet i am still infront of my laptop doing like well online je larh jawab dia. assalamualaikum blog readers. weheeee lama tak berceloteh. since i'm leavin kelantan tomorrow, hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm how time flies. i wish to stay with my friends here, my family, my cousins and my everything lah. ape ke tak fikir dulu-dulu sebelum pindah. it is still a disaster tahu tak. bukan best sangat duduk jauh2. homesick?? sangat sangat homesick bro wa cakap sama lu. hehe manja tak? yekkkkk tak manja okay, kasih sayang yang terjalin tu tak utuh haaaa. pejam celik pejam celik, esok dah jumaat. esok jugak nak gerak balik kl. argh!! faham tak, kalau saya tak nak balik. i wanna be here. wanna be in my recent school.wanna be in my room. wanna be at home!!!!!!!!!!!! aaaaa life's hard, but live with it. takde lah hidup orang tu smooth like no cabaran and halangan at all. tak mungkin. everybody has their own problems. it is something simple. but it's hard to overcome it. sometimes i dunnow why, i feel that i'm being so lonely. *tak berkaitan antara yang hidup atau yang mati ye hehe*. takde lah lonely sangat. tapi tu semua ajar kita banyak benda. haram ke halal ke. haaaa tu semua kene amik kira. tup tup haram.haaaa saya bersyukur apabila diputuskan :). insyallah everythings gonna be okay. jodoh, cinta, pertemuan, hidup, mati seseorang ditentukan oleh Allah. he knows what's the best for us. i was glad that walaupun tak bercontact, at least tahu yang anda sihat.alhamdulilah. aaaaaaaaa i wish i can get back the time. ahhhh, guys u never know how does it feel to be so far away from ur parents and your siblings. you'll feel empty. i have no one to share my secrets to *kecuali kawan. but its different, kawan, kawan la. so for god sake lah kan, nasihat saya lah kan, fikir like sampai gila okay sebelum pindah. but yeahh for better future, you pergi lah kan? its for me toooo. mama selalu pesan yang "nawaitu kena betul bila belajar jauh2. mama takde tepi awak kat sane". when i heard that, my tears rolled down from my eyes. my tears pours like a waterfall!! haha. sedih kan? ya allah , perlu ke hidup jauh jauh dengan famliy. tapi mama selalu pesan jugak, sehomesick mane pun, buat lah keje mane2 patut. jangan fikir sangat haaa. insyallah saya akan berjumpa kamu semua masa raya hoho! tu confirm best weheee. got to go, esok nak gerak awal :'(. gudnite semuanya and assalamualaikum

bored to death seriouslyy